Surround Sound!

I have been waiting for quite a while for my daddy to let me have surround sound in my room because we have a set of speakers not being used. My house already had a set of speakers in the living room, ones that are in the wall close to the TV area. Ever since we moved from New Jersey, the set of Bose speakers were just sitting around the garage, catching dust. We’re missing a receiver to run the speakers since we needed the other is being used in the living room. Yesterday, my daddy saw in the ad of a Sony receiver that was $100 off, sold at $120, which is so cheap considering usually a receiver is around $500 as my daddy said. Hopefully they don’t sell out…then I won’t be able to get surround sound in my room for a while.

On top of that, my daddy ordered a new lens for me online!! I accidentally broke my other lens by falling off my skateboard (stupid uneven sidewalk!). Well, it’s not broken, but sometimes when I zoom in, it gets stuck. Even one of the glass in the lens shattered! I can’t wait to get the new lens for my Nikon DSLR!! It’s gonna have more zoom than my old lens and I’ll be getting a new case too!! When my daddy first bought the camera I asked for a case, but he said I didn’t need one and I fell and broke the lens…I think that just told him that I need a case to protect my camera and lens =)  I can’t wait to take the photography class next semester! I’ll have so much stuff to carry around, it’s going to be ridiculous.

Hope everyone had a good thanksgiving day!! I went over to a family friends house and watched the Golden Bell Awards, the Chinese one. After seeing how Black & White getting nominated for so many different categories, I want to watch it now! It’s a drama with Vic Zhou amd Mark Chao. Mark Chao won the best actor award!! He’s pretty good looking

Currently I am addicted to the song by MBLAQ, Oh Yeah. MBLAQ stands for Music Boys Live in Absolute Quality. Even though this is not my usual taste in music, I grew to like the song, mostly because of their MV and the choreography of the dance. This group is signed under J. Tunes, which is owned by Rain. This is the first group Rain trained and debuted, which means tons of pressure for the group to do well. They sometimes even practice up to 14 hours a day! Poor guys.

My favorite one in the group is Lee Joon!! His smile is so bright and cute….but it’s so sad how he twisted his ankle, then caught H1N1 along with a lot of Korean stars. It’s so unfortunate that 3 out of 5 members (Onew, Jonghyun, Taemin) of SHINee caught the H1N1. Hope it doesn’t spread more among the Korean Stars…

Spoiledness

I get so spoiled by my mommy. She buys almost everything I ask for even though when I ask she would say ‘ugh, waste of money!’

I got four big cartons of orange juice, big box of yogurt, nutella spread, big bag of Lindor truffles and a big can of Mocha Cappuccino mix all from Costco. So much yummy food!! I am probably going to gain some weight back now

Anyway, I went to Olive Garden again with my friend Erin. I haven’t seen her in forever!! It’s always nice to talk to her since we have the same outlook on so many things. I got seafood Alfredo and couldn’t resist getting the tiramisu!!! The tiramisu was so creamy with a subtle taste of rum….I should seriously learn how to make a tiramisu so I don’t have to always spend so much money to buy it in restaurants!

So not alive.

This blog is dying because more private things has been happening  and I post those on my secret xanga account…my private diary.

But um, nothing really new? Just trying to get through this semester..I can’t believe finals starts in like 21 days!! Music theory stuff is really gonna kill me.

幸福的時光 Lyrics

潘裕文 & 徐宛鈴（鴨子)

那一年的幸福時光片尾曲

一直揹在肩上的夢想 像不熄滅卻靠不近的星光
學偽裝 學爭搶 如果就該這樣 又為什麼會感傷

我只能夠抱緊妳的害怕 因為我也沒有解答
也許人的心都要被擠壓 再透過掙扎去長大

安靜的眼淚 滴在樓頂的地上 加蓋的夢能蓋在哪
黑暗暝 落雨聲 鳥仔天光猶原會唱歌
想回到那年幸福的時光 口袋裡是滿滿的希望

再難也敢去闖 只因有你在身旁 風中才不像流浪
攜帶著那段幸福的時光 平靜每個失眠的晚上

緊握一種信仰 不要翅膀要堅強 雪花融在眼裡 看見火花

每次出發最喜歡坐靠窗 想著未來看著遠方
現實和想像多麼不一樣 好奇真相要有膽量

安靜的眼淚 滴在樓頂的地上 加蓋的夢能蓋在哪
黑暗暝 落雨聲 鳥仔天光猶原會唱歌

想回到那年幸福的時光 口袋裡是滿滿的希望
再難也敢去闖 只因有你在身旁 風中才不像流浪
攜帶著那段幸福的時光 平靜每個失眠的晚上
緊握一種信仰 不要翅膀要堅強 雪花融在眼裡 看見火花

<3

Headache & Fever

I was feeling a little bit of a headache in the morning and I didn’t know I would end up getting a fever and headache that was five times more painful than it was in the morning.

I went to the doctor and he just gave me an antibiotic for my infection in my mouth/nose area…this is like the second time I had this too!

After dosing myself with tylenol, vitamin b complex and the antibiotic with six hours of naps throughout the day, I’m feeling better. But even with tylenol, my headache is still sitting at the back of my head, not going away.

But one good thing came out of this, I realized how much my friends cared and are willing to take care of me when the time comes.  My mom got lost and didn’t know where to pick me up and my friends were waiting with me for almost an hour and trying to figure out where my mom could be. I love my friends. Thanks for the time you guys spent with me, I’ll definitely get better soon!!

I had a funny thought in my head, just a very random thought. I wished there was a tall guy that can give me a really big hug and make me feel safe when I was feeling horrible at school, just someone to comfort me. Eh, just a random thought.

Classes on Monday

Fairly interesting day, I’m getting so bored in history class that I’ve started tallying every time my teacher says the word “essentially”. He just loves using that word and today he said essentially 60 times in one class. I’m actually tallying every day and wanted to find out how many times he says it during the span of this semester.

World of Jazz midterm! It was so much easier than I thought it would be since it was only one page of short answers. I only studied for one hour and the information seem to just set in my mind, so much easier to remember than all the history stuff for some reason…maybe it’s because I heard of more of the people mentioned and there was a lot less information covered in Jazz than Music History. I finished the midterm within 30 minutes…I felt so lucky since I really wanted time to practice before I go to my lesson. 45 minutes of practicing, I was worried that I wasn’t going to have a good lesson, but I was wrong.

Lesson consist of me playing two of the songs that I’ve been practicing since I started studying with my new violin teacher. I was very surprised when she complimented me saying I have the ability to phrase and express emotions through music very smoothly and expressively. I totally did not know how to respond to that because I didn’t think I was capable of impressing my teacher today, or any day in fact. But this is something that is going to push me to work harder and concentrate more on playing, and not only practicing hard, enjoying the music is the most important thing. So far up to now, I’ve learned violin, worrying more about the notes than the phrasing. Expressing my feelings through music is something that is somewhat new to me, takes all my concentration for me to express my feelings through music, but even though that might sound tiring, it’s something that I enjoy.

After my lesson, I had to help out a fellow classmate from my string fundamental class since she was having trouble with playing viola and bass. I find it funny how I can teach bass and viola when I only play the violin. But viola and violin are pretty similar. It was fun since we just stood in the hallway while tons of music students were walking by and watching me teach my classmate. The double bass is such a hard instrument to play! Makes my hand sore in 15 minutes and the reach of the notes are so far compared to violin, but I still enjoying playing the bass!

And now I’m procrastinating on my lesson plan due for my Introduction to Music Education class. It’s so hard to come up with a lesson plan!! I keep on getting distracted by facebook and minesweeper…bleh. I hope I finish it soon.

ONE MORE MIDTERM AND I’LL BE FINISHED WITH ALL MY MIDTERMS! Finally…my midterms went over the span of three weeks…too long for my taste..><

Anyway, for some reason, I’ve been so much happier these days and I’ve asked people if I seem to be a happy person, and everyone so far has said yes. Even though I can be quiet at times, I’m still happy. I’m glad I am able to laugh and let things just be the way they are because God has his plans for me, I should just have faith and follow the road that He has given me. I’d have to thank Tim for that thought because he had somewhat of the same idea, like whatever happens happens.

Yay for smiles!!

New Month, Refreshed Feeling

So many of my friends always say that I seem to be always happy and pass over the sad parts of life in a short time. It’s funny because I consider myself a pessimistic person, yet I am always laughing at everything (yep, every little thing) and smiling a lot everyday (at least trying). I’ve heard from a few of my close friends that I laugh a lot, and they seem to envy my outlook on life. One reason why I laugh so much while talking to Matthew on the phone, is because he is the one that makes me happy because he always calls me!! <3 He’d always think I’m so happy and I’m so lucky to be so happy and free from struggles. I usually do laugh about little things when I talk to friends because that’ll cheer them up if they are in a bad mood or make them feel less sad, keep their mind off of the problems. I really do believe laughing is the cure to a lot of things, so I laugh =)

I seem to wiggle out of getting into dramas. I thought I had some drama in my life, but Yumi was just like, ‘you never get into any dramas! You seem to avoid them or something!! The definition of drama to you are those tv shows, the only dramas you get involved in!’ Her definition of drama is a problem that involves three people. All the things that I deal with is only with me and another person… Maybe it’s because I don’t get myself involved with guys. Guys really do have cooties! Except for Matt, Taka and Natan

Last month, everything seem to be out of proportion, I was making myself stressed over every little thing. I do not find the need to be so stressed over things now, just go with the flow and everything will be fine. I was getting a little overwhelmed with other people’s problems and dramas, but now I think I don’t really need to stress myself with those thoughts and just help my friends through tough times without making myself feel like I need to control the situation. As for midterms and tests in general, I’m definitely NOT going to procrastinate and kill myself the few days after that. I ended up getting dizzy for four days because of a massive lack of sleep. Private lessons are not as hard as I had expressed to Vicky and not as stressful, I’m just not used to getting pushed so much. I’m glad my teacher has such a high expectation, giving me confidence in my abilities as an artist. Even though I have to increase my practice time and concentration, I am not backing down from this challenge!

Let this new month begin with a splash of happiness, with the feeling of being refreshed. Let this month be full of laughter, healing of wounds for my friends, discovering new friends and becoming closer to others. Let me feel blessed to have so many wonderful friends to cheer me on and all the different opportunities offered to me. Let the short pursuit be of a lesson to me, giving me more wisdom and experience to approach guys with more ease. Let my walk with God be defined and showed through my actions and my relationship with others. Bring me back into the light, let me catch the grace falling upon us in the rain, let me feel You in the wind, and be in awe of the stars You’ve painted for us in the night sky. Let this be a month of change.

Dedication: Short Pursuit

Let this moment pass for now, this dream that I was in. It was surreal and fake at the same time.

It was something that I didn’t really believe, someone could fall for me so quickly.

Yet the feelings just lasted for a week and the pursuit was done already.

Only did when your pursuit stop, I wanted to know you more.

It might just be a big misunderstanding and tons of miscommunications.

We had a image of each other from our friend, but truly, we did not even know each other.

Perhaps to you, the image of me did not match up to the real me, thus the pursuit was so short.

The feelings you had for me might be true, but only to that image you had in your head.

The words you’ve expressed to my friend about me seem to be fake right now, but maybe you truly meant it.

I wasn’t willing to take the risk when you did because I wanted to know you more…

The feelings I had for you were of friends, only as a friend because I really just wanted to know you more.

Even if you might not know, you have not seen the other side of me, the side that is so much more awkward and funny.

Somehow I wished you would be more open to learning about my personality as a friend.

I wished you knew that I was taking a big step in talking to you.

I wished you knew that my feelings take a long time to develop…

I hardly talk with guys, and I really did make the effort to communicate with you, genuinely wanting to know you as a friend.

I know there is a side of you that I do not know, but I look forward to know that side of you in the future.

In the future where you and I can start all over again and just be friends, without any other complications.

Even if the times was hard when I was confused and did not know what to do, I will not trade anything for this time I spent with you.

Through various events, I learned so much from you and all my friends that were helping me through this.

But most of all, I learned to listen to my own heart more.

Sure I take into consideration the advices my friends give me, but ultimately, it’s still my choice.

And I received your attitude of ‘whatever happens, happens.’

I was really stressed, confused, pressured and tired with school and you. Mostly because of school things.

But through this, it brought me closer to God; I searched for comfort and encouragement through worship and reading the Bible.

I quickly got over this and decided to let everything just be like the cold wind, just passing by.

It might be weird for me to say but, I’m already loving you as a friend because I feel like I can see a glimpse of who you really are.

I might be saying this from what I’ve heard about you, but I can tell how silly, kind and down to earth you are.

Thank you for the hugs, compliments and all the effort you took in trying to see me out of your busy schedule.

Those hugs gave me encouragement, all the compliments made me feel special, all the time you spent to see me made me miss you once you were not there.

Let us not have to go through these misunderstandings and miscommunications again.

Let’s meet and start anew in the future!

Give me a chance to know you more.

 

The song that reminds me of you: Colbie Caillat – Fallin’ for You & SS501 – Love like This

Music & Isabel

Today seemed to be a normal day, until I saw the cutest baby on the planet!

Guitar class was fun!! I woke up at 7 40 since I didn’t hear my alarm…got ready in 20 minutes. The class is going so fast that I have to practice a lot to keep up!! Bar chords are so hard! But I was happy that I learned to play You & Me by Lifehouse! Time to practice all the hard chord changes and learn to sing while playing hehe.

When I was following Yu-Ting to the music office, she opened the door and I heard a familiar voice calling out to her. I looked into the room and there was Lindsay! She was a undergrad & grad student at SJSU, a very bubbly and energetic person with a very sweet and funny personality. I got a big and comfy hug from her =) I haven’t seen her since the beginning of the summer. And then I saw the little baby on the table, little Isabel. She is so small, but from the other people that seen her before said she has been growing really fast. Isabel is such a cute baby, very energetic, kicking and reaching her arms out the whole time I was watching her. She is a very healthy and happy baby. I loved watching the way that Lindsay would entertain Isabel, making silly noises and waving her fingers and tapping her on the nose.

Apparently, Lindsay noticed that the baby was very intrigued by me. I wasn’t really doing anything, just sitting there and watching her being energetic and seeing how she reacts with other people teasing her. I did notice that Isabel had her head turned so that she could see me, but I didn’t think much about it. Either she thought I was pretty, or my long black hair or my bright white jacket caught her attention. I couldn’t stop smiling when I saw Isabel…my heart was instantly cured of all the worries I had, and happiness filled up that space. Amazing how babies have the ability to do that for me.

After I left from the music office, I had my quartet coaching. Quartet practice was awesome! So was coaching! I was so stressed over it because I didn’t think I would have enough time to practice my part, passages with fast triplets, but I got through and got compliments from my teacher =) My group is playing the Hayden Quartet, Opus 77.

Yay! Today was a very happy day =)

Fallin’ for You

Colbie Caillat – Fallin’ for You

WARNING: This song is highly addictive, be prepared to be listening to it for a week straight!

Just kidding…maybe. I’ve been listening to this song for about a week and I cannot get myself to listen to other songs. I don’t know why it’s so addictive, but maybe it’s because Colbie has the same vocal range as me so I can sing it with ease. I love her voice! She is so pretty too. The guitar in the video is so pretty! (I want that guitar!!)

Today seems to be a really great day, even though I have so many things to worry about for next week, I’m just taking the time to relax and not think so much about everything.

Maryloie is so funny, I commented on her attires, saying she looks really cute and her reply..’I tried’ hahaha, I love her, she makes me laugh so much =)

Matt is always so happy. I haven’t seen him in almost a month I think, but I saw him today, he just had a big smile on his face, always makes me happy to see him.

Finally went to Smile Sushi close to SJSU with Yumi and Suzanne. The ton katsu and California rolls were so yummy! The menu actually only said that I was going to get 6 pieces of California roll, but I ended up getting 8 pieces!! Yumi said maybe they just think I’m really cute so they gave me more sushi =)

Suzanne had a gift card for Starbucks, so we went after dinner and I got a medium white hot chocolate…so fattening but it was so yummy! Next time I should just get a small because I think the medium is too much for me to drink at once.

The graduate student recital was a jazz concert, and it was very interesting! All of the songs performed was written or arranged by the graduate student himself!! So amazing, I am liking jazz more and more.

Then when I came home today, my daddy bought me Ear Drops, a pink in-ear earphone by Panasonic for me to use as a backup if my other one breaks. I think my daddy doesn’t know I don’t wear too much pink, sure I like the color, but it’s too bright for me sometimes. Daddy will continue to think I like pink, I guess it’s a good contrast to all the other colors I have. Now I have three earphones!!

Today was just a really happy day =)